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[Feb. 28th, 2006|10:47 am] |
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| | "Crying at the Discoteque" | ] |
I haven't heard from Otis in over a week. There has been no signs of him anywhere. He's supposedly coming up to live here in four days. I have a feeling he's dead. My stomach is nauseant. Can't I just cry instead?
..Happy Birthday Otis.. |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2006|11:26 am] |
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Sometimes I stare deep within my soul, and all I see burning inside is a cigarette. |
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[Jan. 18th, 2006|10:15 pm] |
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| | "Glass Garden" | ] |
Due to luckyclover sending me a "go post in your LJ" e-mail sent to my main account, I felt inclined to do this.
-|.Overall Synopsis.|-
Can't find a job. Applied everywhere under the sun. Getting depressed. Sleeping a lot. Ignoring phone calls. Avoiding messenger. Avoiding people. More applying. More calls. No positions available.
-|.Detailed Epilogue.|-
I forgot what day it has been, what day is going to be next. Woken up again to my celluar ringing, I mute the device. My body aches, slept hard I guess. The bed stinks of something rotten, assuming it is me. Who cares. My head falls back on the pillow, my mind racing with that enormous deadline in a month. With thousands of applications/resumes/even volunteering forms floating throughout Lansing and its surrounding areas, hopelessness overwhelms me. I cry to the thought that I will never find a job, a job will never find me. I cannot face talking to people, as if I need to prove myself worthy of talking to them. I can't visit them, no money. I may as well not communicate with them then. Another call vibrates in, since it is silenced. I ignore.
Going back to my hole. |
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[Dec. 1st, 2005|06:56 pm] |
Wow.. i really can't wait until february..
LET'S get that job working fabulousness moving!!
and.
I hope my mom starts acting less crazy.
She is psychotic.. mental ward, anyone?
yes.
this house. it's haunted, by EVIL.
EEEEEEEEVIL.
oh snap. |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2005|11:00 pm] |
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heyyy omg ALE cut my hair and then this guy i liked was playing a game and i didn't like that so much but Mike's bedroom warming party was SOOOO fun and i met some hardcore people but feel uber bad that we bought more liquor without his consent with some fake ID of a friend's. .... yeah, then the next day Otis (which if you haven't figured out yet, is more important than you <3) was like OMG i can't go to tennessee anymore and i'm like omg why not and he's like OMG cuz my best friend's mom in the whole world is an absolute bitch... which makes sense. so then he's like i'm coming to michigan AND WHOA i was THIIIIIIS happy. it was psychidelic. THEN i called crystal to see how her life in florida is doing since otis coincidentally lives there and SHE WAS HOME OMG OMFG it was the best thing in the entire world because
SPOILER
when i was hanging out at the guy i like's house i was crying in the bed, uncontrollably.. and it wasn't even about the guy.. it was just that my biggest fear in the entire world has been following me around for 5 months now.. and.. well.. i came to the realization that it will never go away.. the feeling of always being alone. It was a hard thing to face.. and even harder to accept. But things are looking better now, most definitely.
ANYWAY so i went to brians even though i really should have gone back to mike's because i called him first and i wanted to spend more time with him before going back to ionia... yeah, so brian and his 2 close friends, we all went out to eat. they were fun. YAY for fun people. and one of them shared a cigarette with me.. then went back to brian's finished a movie went to pick up otis in the morning. I'm really excited to meet him before he came here to live... it gives a more optimistic point of view. he's a hottie and SOOO nice. NOT TO SOUND VAIN but i think ugly people is just wrong. so i'm glad.
LOVE |
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[Nov. 15th, 2005|11:14 pm] |
Your dating personality profile:
Outgoing - You can liven up any party. You've got a way with people and have little difficulty charming your dates.
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life. | Your date match profile:
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.
Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart.
Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need. | Your Top Ten Traits
1. Outgoing
2. Liberal
3. Adventurous
4. Funny
5. Practical
6. Athletic
7. Wealthy/Ambitious
8. Sensual
9. Romantic
10. Stylish
| Your Top Ten Match Traits
1. Adventurous
2. Funny
3. Conservative
4. Athletic
5. Outgoing
6. Practical
7. Big-Hearted
8. Intellectual
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Traditional
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Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions |
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[Nov. 14th, 2005|12:40 pm] |
| Your Birthdate: June 16 | 
You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride.
Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing.
When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it.
It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious.
Your strength: Your warm heart
Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions
Your power color: Black
Your power symbol: Musical note
Your power month: February |
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| Maybe people read this more... CONTEST. ENTRIES = YES PLEASE |
[Nov. 11th, 2005|03:42 pm] |
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<3 Fill Me With Your Love. Do it, WIN (A Shawn Original) <3
Name:
Age:
Location:
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Contest Rules
The questions you answer are based on a point system. The more points you have in each category, the more likely you'll become the winner. The winner will be given the option to receive one of three very special prizes. Each category has a maximum of 10 points per question, for a maximum of 400 points altogether. Only the persons who win or exceed a total of 260 points will know the options from which to choose from.
Categories
- Length: It's always good to have "Long Stuff" to be proud of.
- Creativity: If there's more than an ounce you can part with, do it.
- Uniqueness: "Your Mom" does not count as being unique.
- Humor: ROTFLMAO at something you've written is an automatic 10.
Let the contest begin.
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1.) You walk into your favorite clothing store only to see your arch nemesis wearing the SAME EXACT outfit as you: shirt, skirt (or shorts), shoes, accessories, and all. They even found a replica of the authentic Indian bangles your auntie imported to you from overseas. Obviously, you are pissed. How do you confront this situation?
2.) It's almost time for that annual float parade your town celebrates. This year the theme has leaned more towards the conservative morals of society and dubbed the name "Jesus And The Taxpayers." You feel inclined to participate in creating one of these floats with your friends, either to show your pride for the event or mock the idiots who thought up the theme; you haven't decided yet. What awe-inspiring idea have you come up with?
3.) The bath water is running, you're pretty much naked aside from a salmon-colored baseball cap with the words "Taking One For The Team" on it and a lamenated cardboard cut-out of Mark Dalton (or Aria Giovanni, if you happen to desire so) snuggly nuzzled beneath your left arm pit. As you place your other foot into the tub of unlimited sensual possibilities, the bath salts affect you in a strange hallucinogenic way. Recall what you saw, and what had happened.
4.) High demands for a dinosaur exhibit at the local museum has forced the city to hire inexperienced technicians. You have been assigned to aid in the design of these prehistoric manifestations, but since you lack the engineering and mechanical skills in bringing pieces of scrap metal to life, you must find an alternative solution. How do you overcome this obstacle?
5.) As you stroll through the underground subways of downtown New York, you can't help but notice what appears to be a sick, dying, and possibly diseased kitten in the corner of your eye. Getting closer to the almost lifeless feline, it peers up at you besting an attempt of seduction with unnatural amounts of cuteness. You suspect something dangerously suspicious and maniacal but, regardless, you feel inclined to cradle it back to health. Describe the strange events that happened following the interception.
6.) The most unspeakable of personal horrors has come true. An extremely vindictive person, who shall forever remain anonymous, has machine washed and dried your $2500 white rabbit fur-lined avacado mid-length trench coat. It has now shrunk to a size that would glamour Barbie's disproportioned torso. Desparate to revert your prized threads to its original state, you decide drastic measures must be taken. Provide detailed tactics on how you returned all to what it was before.
7.) It's autumn. Mysteriously, a cider mill has been brought into existence a few miles outside of the city. Popularity for its pasturized goodness has grown at exponential rates, boasting that its peculiar flavor holds ethereal properties. Because of your apples and bananas hiatus, you refuse to participate in this expansive fad. Nights following, your attention has been redirected toward the customers and their odd behaviors, especially references of lurking and lurching after dusk. Interest to investigate overwhelms you. What sorts of gruesome discoveries have you unearthed?
8.) You have just been informed that your great Grandmother who had lived in the darkest corners of Europe has passed away. Even though you knew nothing of her ever being alive, in her will she had left for you a rare and beautiful surprise. Air mail takes about two weeks to receive between nations, naturally. The package eventually comes, you open with sheer excitement. Pushing the foam peanuts aside, you unveil something so extraordinary it baffles you. Inform, as best as possible, this rare beauty and the occurences that came after the unveiling.
9.) A conglomerate located far to the south has been rumored to host an anarchist organization with plans to assasinate all famous figures, including celebrities. Gearing up, you realize the only way for David Beckham (or Gwen Stefani, if you happen to desire so) to ever fall in love with you is to save their helpless asses from imminent death. Where was the anarchist's secret base located and how were you able to infiltrate it, ultimately saving every famous icon in pop culture?
10.) Adventuring into the depths of a nearby trash can to recover the pair of Air Pumps your mother threw away, a magical lamp is revealed underneath a disgustingly slimey napkin. As you rub the lamp to remove the vile substances on it, a spirit emerges from the deep recesses of the spout. Before it grants you your well deserved three wishes, it would like for you to escort it to a place unknown to earth, far beyond this galaxy. In what ingenious ways do you accomplish this task?
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Post your answers in the Blog section (a copy of this will be made there as well), or make it into a reply message. You will receive your total points scored for each category and question shortly after your submittance.
May best of luck follow you, at least in winning this contest. |
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| Friends and Potentials.. where's my dousing rod? |
[Nov. 11th, 2005|12:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | "All That Mattered" - De Nuit | ] |
I hate how hard it is to make new friends.. since all the ones I had here like vanished to the far corners of the earth. Seriously, I've had better luck throwing those round bouncy things across a gym and into that sack with a hole in the bottom of it. It's like being nice isn't enough now-a-days.. I guess the same can go for trying to find a boyfriend. People just aren't interested in a good man. They need.. I don't know what they need, but someone should really tell me because I'm becoming impatient. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2005|09:58 pm] |
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Ok.. so it's not strept throat, or scarlet fever.. and my doctor is stupid and never knows anything. He doesn't deserve the $84 I paid him -_-* |
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[Nov. 8th, 2005|09:17 pm] |
I think I may have Scarlet Fever.. going to the doctor tomorrow.
/sulk. This sucks. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2005|11:01 pm] |
Crystal left today.
I feel sad. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2005|12:32 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | "Emotional Rollercoaster" - Vivian Green | ] |
I wish i had a really really big bright light i could shine in the sky... so i could lay on the grass and watch the clouds go by. It always helps me to take my mind off things. Too bad it's dark. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2005|12:56 am] |
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I want to cuddle with you. You know why. |
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| Tonight, Tomorrow, the rest of life. |
[Nov. 1st, 2005|07:17 pm] |
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I was foolish to believe that even for a split second everything in my life would just fit into place. There is no word to describe this expression on my face; when you can't tell if your eyes are squinting from holding tears back or gaped wide with unbelievable surprise, denial. Yesterday was quite perfect and now... well, I guess people have to do what they have to do. I hate feeling lonely. I hate getting this queasy feeling in my stomach. I hate crying.. .. ... I'm not going to be able to deal with this very well.
...Change is good, they say... |
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[Oct. 30th, 2005|01:53 am] |
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Who else feels as frozen as a popsicle!!!
Brrrrr
D: |
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[Oct. 29th, 2005|08:11 pm] |
L
M
A
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I'm content with myself. :) |
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[Oct. 27th, 2005|12:57 pm] |
Magic - Obscure
You are dark and
mysterious and seem quite dangerous to others
who do not know you... You have the power to
create, change and destroy... You are powerful,
strong willed and intelligent... You always
have a plan
Animagi form:
Unicorn
Most compatible with:
Elecricity
Least compatible
with: Fire
Song: Nemo
- Nightwish
Ruling Goddess:
Athena
Are you an Obscure or Dominant Element?? {Great pics}
brought to you by Quizilla |
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[Oct. 25th, 2005|08:28 pm] |
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SO.. In the past two days, I've talked to about 12 friends AND, coincidentally, all who have just recently gotten boyfriends and I'm like WHAT THE FUCK!! Why do I not have a boyfriend? Keep in mind I'm in no way jealous or envious or whatever of them, because they're happy and that makes me happy.. but I want my own happiness too damnit! I wish there was a website where you could order a boyfriend, cuz that would be cool.. like that one episode from Totally Spies where they go into a machine and discover the man of their dreams. Yeah, I'd like that. And it's not like this is some kind of new hobby where I'm like, "omg, a boyfriend would be so awesome to have right now." It's something that I've kind of sorta maybe really been wanting for quite some time now. Whether I took up on the offers of the past is another story, I guess I'm just trying to find Mr. Right.. Mr. Wrong.. whatever. Just SOME GUY who is hot, mildly intellectual, and loves anime and RPGs just as much as I do. That's not a lot to ask for, is it? |
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